it’s dreams at night, day dreaming, imagining different futures for myself. It
all comes down to dreaming, that creative spirit that lives in our hearts and
is just itching to get out. That reckless abandonment, that out of control,
outrageous, feeling that allows your heart to just burst at the seems. Allows your
imagination to over flow with ideas of the future: what it smells like, tastes
like, looks like. You want it to be so tangible so soon, you want to be able to
reach out and grab hold of it for dear life. You want it to be that one thing
that you know will keep you going. That dream, that place of prosper for your
heart and soul.
incredibly powerful God. This amazing God who sent His ONLY son to DIE for us,
to DIE for me. In this huge and awesome love that our God possesses we are
called to greatness.
you God I’ll pass I would rather be ordinary? Especially when thinking and
knowing the price that was paid for our own lives. My life that is ultimately
the Lord’s no matter how I twist and warp and try to make it my own. He has
called me to greatness. To step up in Him and to dream these amazing, crazy,
loving dreams. To go far beyond what I have ever imagined possible for myself,
for others, for the nations. How dare I even think to limit what God is capable
of. It is the most humbling experience to realize that you have just told God
that He can’t handle something and that you can do it on your own. Ha I just
laugh when I look back at those times and I cringe knowing that I will do it
again. Ah but to be at this place where I place no limitations on my amazing
God, my Father. When I allow Him to show me what is beyond my own imagination
and my own dreams. Where I let Him take me to my heart’s desires. A place where
I can spend time loving Him. A time for just me and my Jesus, hanging out on
the beach loving on each other. It sounds funny, but it is exactly where He
wants us to be. Finding Him in those childlike fantasies. Letting go of any and
all inhibitions and allowing ourselves to go somewhere not ordinary, somewhere
extraordinary. That is exactly what He is calling us to be and how He is
calling us to live. I don’t want to be just another Christian. I want to be a
warrior, a fire breathing, selflessly loving, gentle and compassionate woman. A
woman whose heart is completely aligned with my lover’s. I want my limitless
dreams to be one with God’s and for Him to take me even further beyond that. To
drown in that depth, to be the woman He is calling me to be, to establish that
character and heart attitude and prosper in it.
I don’t have this now. I only have glimpses of a
future like this. Of a time and place of ultimate release where my dreams and
deepest desires reveal themselves and where the dreams of my God are given to
me so that I may prosper and glorify Him. Where my heart and God’s heart are
one. Where I am completely soaked in the love and intimacy of my lover, the
most beautiful marriage imaginable. Although I may not know where to start I can
feel a burning hunger, a groaning in the pit of my existence that is calling me
to this greatness. That is calling me to help lead a generation into this
amazing realization of the dreams that the Lord has for them. The royalty He
has placed on them and the prosperity He has promised them.
I’ve got nothing to lose
except maybe myself and even then, that’s something I desire most.
