Sorry…
I have been really slack about keeping up with my blog. I would say that I have been to busy but thats only part true…
In the past month or so, I have moved into my grandparents, started working a crazy amount of hours, have been keeping up with my new healthy way of eating, among other things. So i have been busy but ive also been in some what of a rut… if you will…
Every Christian, i feel like, goes through ups and downs in their relationship with God. Since being accepted to the World Race, I have been on cloud nine. People have been congratulating me, and saying they are proud of me… I started to feel pride creep up, but i was able to easily squash it by knowing that this is Gods mission and i am doing his work, not mine. Because if it were up me to i would be selfish and stay were i was comfortable. Reading my bible everyday, praying, and having that quiet time to acknowledge that He is number one was something something i desperately needed.
I didnt realize that my quiet time was a crucial part of my day and my relationship with God. On top of being accepted, i also started to get my health “issues” under control. I told myself that i wanted to be fit and healthy before i went on my trip, because there was no way that i was going to let my weight get in the way of the things that i was going to get to do on the mission field. So far Ive lost 40 lbs, healthily, in the past 2 months. I havent felt this good in a long time. It feels so good to be able to run and not feel like im going to pass out. I love the support i get from others about these two very big things that have happened in my life…
I have realized though that if im not constantly talking to God or having a daily quiet time… the pride is getting harder and harder to squish. Even though these things are great, if i dont give the glory to God, it becomes easier to focus on myself and start to think maybe i dont need to rely on Him as much… Which isnt true, there is no way i could have worked a ridiculous amount of hours in two weeks or kept up with eating healthy and exercising with out Him watching out for me. I would be in the corner going insane right now if i didnt have His support.
All that is to say, relying on God and trusting him is just as important to do through the good days as it is the bad days. He is who we are living for. Not our friends or family, our jobs, or ourselves. He is the sole purpose that we are here and if we don’t stay focused on him it easier to start to fall in the rut again…
So Pray and Read your bible! Be Blessed.
