This is a phrase that is really common to my ears. Apparently it is something I said as a child a lot, and my family uses it to kind of tease me about my independence.

But I was just chatting with my mom about something fund-raising related and she used it again. And I’m really starting to think about it and what it means, and why I have been like this since a very young age. I guess I havent figured a lot out as far as the origin of the problem, but I HAVE realized how much of a negative attitude I have towards needs. Especially my own personal needs, and letting others make up for my weaknesses.

And that is what the body of Christ is for…

Ephesians 4

Romans 12

Romans 12:3-16 New International Version (NIV)

Humble Service in the Body of Christ

³ For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. ⁴ For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, ⁵ so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others.⁶ We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your^[a] faith; ⁷ if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; ⁸ if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,^[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.

Love in Action

⁹ Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. ¹⁰ Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. ¹¹ Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. ¹² Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction,faithful in prayer. ¹³ Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

¹⁴ Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. ¹⁵ Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. ¹⁶ Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.^[c] Do not be conceited.

 

 

I want to apologize to many of you for not allowing you to love me and serve me like you desire to. And to many that I have served out of pride, not love.

I’ve been judging those with needs (whether outwardly noticeable or not) that I need to meet, and holding back my needs from so many who want to see them and meet them. Needs are not negative. It is going to take me a long time to learn this.

I’m so grateful for those of you that just keep trying to love me. Thank you.