There is no love like your love. I know that. I understand that concept. But why do I crave so much more? Why do I want to be touched and loved by a man? I have you. You should fill my every need, my every desire. I feel helpless and out of control. I want to run from this place you have put me in and turn to something easier. The heaviness I feel is too much to bear. I feel like I am different than everyone else here. They get it and understand your power. I loose my concentration and dream of where else I could be right now. Have you ever felt like you are just not good enough for something? Not smart enough or holy enough or calm enough. You get called out to be more and what do you do with it, you run and hide. Will you ever get it, will you ever reach that place. So here is my garbage God. I don’t know where else to put it but in your hands. Do what you want with it. 
