Up until recently I used to refuse to ackowledge things that hurt me to God. For some reason I really thought I had to put on my “brave face” when I went to him.
WHAT?
What ever made me think this? That is so unproductive. God labels himself as our rock, strength, healer, comforter, helper, counselor, FATHER…it only makes sense that He is the FIRST one we should go to with our deepest hurts.
But for some reason, I thought I had to push away emotions that I labeled as “wrong”, “negative”, “sinful”, “immature”, or “embarassing” and just smile and say all the “right things” to God.
The problem with this is that God has known the real me all along…and in not being honest and open with him I was only making matters worse.
The thing about emotions is that we don’t control them. Emotions are not “good” or “bad”…they just are. It’s not weakness to admit, “I am hurt” or “I am jealous”. These are the things we need to share with God because he helps us work through them.
God is so patient and kind. There is no reason to hide from him. He already knows you (better than you know yourself).
When I finally decided to get really honest and vulnerable with Him about what has been hurting me recently He helped me see the truth about myself and areas of my life that I need to work on.
It’s seriously the best lesson I have ever learned!
I feel so much freedom knowing I can tell him ANYTHING no matter how silly I think it is…he cares. He wants to know.
God is not a scrooge. He is gracious and loving and kind. He is the perfect father, the one who wants to hear you and be there for you, especially when times are tough. Just be real with him, he’s not going to be mad or judgmental, he’s not going to be annoyed or ignore you. He is going to cherish every word you say, hold every tear you cry, and walk with you right through everything and never ever leave you.
“You’ve kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, Each tear entered in your ledger, each ache written in your book.” – Psalm 56:8
“My dove in the clefts of the rock, in the hiding places on the mountainside, show me your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.” – Song of Solomon 2:14
