On the first day working with our ministry we were asked to help move some of the kids to their new foster homes from the main orphanage. The organization Sarah’s Covenant Home is working to provide the children with smaller family like settings. They have done a ton of work to accomplish this goal and when we arrived they were on the last leg of this transition which was actually moving the children. Having met these children the day before I knew it was going to be hectic to move them all. Moving can cause a person to feel a lot of emotions such as excitement, anxiety, frustration and these children are no different. I expected to be right in the middle of all of this but I did not expect God to change my heart and enjoy all the chaos.
I wrote this in my journal laying in my tent after the moving day was done:
“When we got over to the new home we organized furniture and sorted clothes for the children. When the kids arrived it felt like Black Friday at Walmart; kids darting every which way with excitement, joy, fear, and anxiety. We were asked to entertain the kids outside the complex until the beds were put together. This seemed like an impossible task. It was myself and one other girl with about 10-12 kids, some who are as big and even stronger than I am. Kids were hanging around my neck, sticking their fingers in my mouth, petting/pulling my hair, holding my hands, sitting on my lap, and one even licked my neck. Under normal circumstances fingers in my mouth, hands on my face, and all of the chaos would have put me into a near panic attack but I was loving every second of it. I was so content and happy soaking up their smiles and my heart was full.
I am laying here in my tent wondering how all of these things that normally make me so uncomfortable can just fall to the waste-side when it comes to these kids and this place. The Holy Spirit has begun to fill me with a fearlessness, a fire. The Holy Spirit is revealing my true heart and wrecking me. India already has a special place in my heart.. there is no way I am going to be able to stay away for long.”
10/3/13
Overcoming my flesh is what God is doing in my life here in India. The heat, the trash, the bugs, the noise; none of these things can stop my love for this place, this community, and these children and GOD is who I have to thank for that!!
I love these little moments where God reveals Himself and our personal relationship that we have. To others this may seem insignificant but God is teaching me so much through the littlest of moments here in India.
