Recently, I received the comment, "Do we have at least a couple more months with you?" The comment was just an off handed way of asking if I would be around a little longer at our local coffee shop as a barista, but it really made me think. Well, not just think, but feel like I was dying in September.
I remember when the question, "Do we have a couple more months with you?" was a reality for a close family friend of mine. It was a reality because she was dying and we needed to know if we would have more time with her. But for me to be asked that question, I had to think about it…
Am I dying in September?
I might not be physically dying, but there could be truth in that question. 

What is going to happen to my life when I hopelessly abandon myself for a greater cause?


Who will I be when I confidently step out for something/someone who is in need?


Will I live my life for me, when I really am living it for Him?




Will I be living my life differently in September than I am now?

And why does it feel like I will be dying?

Honestly, when I read over those questions, I am met with a resounding answer. But why do I have to wait till September to die? I ask myself this question because the issue at hand is not a physical death. It is a spiritual death. A death that each one of us should have.
Why have I not felt this disturbing feeling of “death” knocking at my door before? As I was pondering these thoughts, I started to look into the word to see what it says about death and life.
(Take a deep breath…this might be extensive…i'll make it quick)
Genesis 2:17- “when you eat of it you will surely die” =talking about the apple in the Garden of Eden. In reality, I have been dead since before I was born because the perfect life in heaven died with that bite, but
Job 14:14 says “If a man (or woman) dies, will he/she live again? All the days of my hard service I will wait for my renewal to come.” Here is the question of the day, if I have been dead since the fateful bite of the apple, Will I live again? Well,
Ecclesiastes 3:2 says, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die…” Isn’t it the craziest idea that this verse is talking about activities under heaven and mentions a time to die? Um…maybe God is getting to something here.
As we continue, Romans 6:2 says, “We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?” Here it is. We died in our sin in the Garden of Eden, and we die to our sin through Christ because in Romans 5:8 it says, “God demonstrates his love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
So Christ died for my sins, what more am I called to do, then die myself for the sake of my God? Mark 8:34-35 says, "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it."
So in death…I find my victory! Bring it on!
