Doubt (dout) v.: being anxious, through a distracted state of mind, wavering between HOPE and Fear
God has placed a dream and a vision in my heart, it began as a little seed, just as a woman has a seed planted into her womb when she becomes pregnant, so I "became pregnant", so to speak, with the things God spoke and promised. During this "pregnancy", Satan has worked hard to try to get me to "abort" my dreams. (battlefield of the mind)
The seed has been planted. The journey is about to begin. As I have been tightening the belt of Truth tighter around me, God has placed His Word in my heart. A passage that He has used to speak to me through is in Matthew 14:
"…And when the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were terrified and said, It is a ghost! And they screamed out with fright. But instantly He spoke to them, saying, Take courage! I AM! Stop being afraid! And Peter answered Him, Lord if it is You, command me to come to You on the water. He said, Come! So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water, and he came toward Jesus. But when he perceived and felt the strong wind, he was frightened, and as he began to sink, he cried out, Lord, save me! Instantly Jesus reached out His hand and caught and held him, saying to him, O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
Peter made a mistake, He took too much time looking at the storm. There are many things that we could look at in our lives, many things that don't make sense, many uncertain situations, or things that seem impossible, but I have a HOPE to cling to that is greater than any circumstance, greater than any storm in or around me! Jesus says, "if you have faith and do not doubt, you can do the same that I have done-and even greater things than this". The CHURCH is ONE body, ONE Spirit, and ONE HOPE, and we have a GREAT Mission in this WORLD!
At the end of Matthew 14, Peter got back in the boat, and the storm ceased, as soon as he quit and crawled back into the place of safety and security. I refuse to get back in the boat because Christ's LOVE makes it worth it all. He has had to reach out, and catch me and hold me at times, but I am continuing to strengthen in Faith and remember my destination, my election as the daughter of the KING, and that brings great HOPE! Please pray that I will bring this REAL HOPE in Jesus Christ to the hopeless in a way that is led by the Spirit and pleasing to the Lord! Also pray for me while I will be at training camp May 21-29th to get prepared spiritually, emotionally, and physically to leave on July 1st:
"Lord, open the eyes of my heart that they may be enlightened in order that I may know the HOPE to which you have called me, the riches of your glorious inheritance in the saints, and your incomparably great Power for us who believe."
