I’m reading this awesome book by Pastor Rob Brendle called In The Meantime and I have to say, I haven’t laughed this hard in quite some time! The book recounts the story of King David in the Old Testament and how even though he was annointed to be King as a teenager, he still had many years to wait before he walked fully into the call on his life. I am so amazed at how realistic and truthful this book is about what it means to wait in the meantime after we’ve heard from God about what He wants us to do with our lives! So often we try to manipulate the order of God’s plan and we attempt to create some sort of normalcy to we think we are supposed to do with our lives. I have found myself fighting against God’s timing and God’s plan and God’s order for my life. In the end, I have only been left exhausted and feeling more clueless than before! It’s in those moments where I don’t fight it that I can hear God whisper to me again, “THAT is what I have for you. That is what you’ll do. That is who you are. This is ME. Now come and find Me. I’ll take care of the details.”
And so, when it comes to my destiny and serving God, here’s what I do know…I’m called to teach and preach God’s truth to others. I’m called to be a leader in some facet or shape or form. I’m called to bring laughter and truth and boldness to others’ lives so that God can move in their hearts. I’m called to be obedient in the small things so that God can move in the big things. I’m called to get back up again no matter how many times I fall.
Here’s what I don’t know…the who/how/when/where of it all! Yet, I’m somehow at peace with not knowing every detail at this moment in time. I know that if I did know, all the details, I’d only do something completely ridiculous like try to take control over my destiny! And we all know what the result would be…I’d just foil God’s whole big spectacular plan! Therefore, I’m not too interested in what’s going to happen 10 years from now. I’m no longer asking myself or God the question, “HOW!?!?! WHAT DO I DO NOW!?!?” Instead, I’m OK right now being faithful in the daily tasks because ultimately they’ll all get me to where I need to be.
Trust is a hard thing. It’s even harder when half the time we feel like we have no choice in the matter. Yet I’m quite determined to daily let go of the little pieces of my life that I grasp so tightly in my own two tiny hands. I’m learning how to let go of the unknowns and find peace and joy through watching it all unfold before me. Honestly, the more I let go, the more I see God work miracles and bring me more clarity about Himself and how I fit into His kingdom.
Going on this race is definitely walking in faith to make a choice to do something I know will be a very big catalyst in the call on my life. At the same time, the World Race is quite scary and it requires me to let go of every plan I’ve ever had. I do not know who I will be nor what my life will look like when I return from this trip. I’m OK with that. In the meantime, I’m going to just keep on keeping on…
