The past few weeks our dog, a rambunctious Schnauzer Mutt mix, has had her nose stuck to the floorboards at the front door. Like, constantly! If she’s not eating, sleeping, or doing her business, her nose is glued to the floor.
At first we thought she could hear/smell termites (and were very impressed!). Last week, we figured out that there was a mama cat who was keeping her kittens in the crawlspace under the house. Despite knowing what it is.. It still is the weirdest thing to watch her sniff, and growl, and pant, and bite, and strain at seemingly nothing. Sometimes it is funny.. most of the time it’s just annoying. I just keep thinking.. “get over it already!”. Even now as i am typing this blog, I’m ready to pop her on the nose and beg her to give it up for the night.
This morning, as I was getting ready for work, I noticed she was back at the same spot.. growling at the floor as usual. Exasperated, I grumbled to her “Dog, you are RELENTLESS!”. Immediately, I could hear the Spirit whisper.. “That’s exactly how I created YOU to be!”.
I had to stop and think about it? “What, God? Growling at “nothing” all day long?” .. “Exactly”.
Then I understood. Living life as a follower of Christ doesn’t always make sense. People may not “get it”, and see what we are striving after. And even if they do “know” what we are chasing after, they still don’t understand why we don’t just give it up already. But that is exactly where Papa wants us to be! Being a World Racer takes this to a whole new level. People definitely don’t get World Race!
I have seen this so many times already with my Race. So many people do not understand why I don’t just give up already with this whole gallivanting-around-the-world-under-the-guise-of-”missions” thing and be normal already. Why don’t I just get married, have a herd of kids, have a steady job, and “minister where I’m at”. And while I fully respect and love and understand where these sweet people are coming from, I can’t help it! I can’t help but feel that call from Papa to keep going. To go against the flow. To follow him to the next place, to the next thing, to the next adventure.
Lately, however, I have found myself second guessing my passion and my calling. Wondering if they were right? What if I AM just being dumb? But then Papa comes in and reminds me that as long as I am following him with everything I have, he knows what is best for me. And besides that.. He created this wandering heart! And boxing it up into a white picket fence with 2.5 children and a steady career (which is what some people ARE made for), would be insulting the creativity of my Creator. Yes.. we need some people to stay where they are planted.. to work the 9-5. But some of us where not created for that.. and forcing ourselves to be someone we are not, not only brings frustration to us (and consequently those around us), but also says to God that He didn’t know what He was doing when He made me.
So I choose to keep chasing after the Wild Goose that is my Holy Spirit. I choose to put my nose to the ground and refuse to give it up, because I just KNOW there is something out there that others can’t see or understand! I choose to be RELENTLESS!
