So, I’ve had people tell me that humans use religion as a crutch. And I’ve also heard these other people freak out because people say that. Well I for one can stand up and say that yes Jesus Christ is in fact my crutch.
When you break you leg, or hurt it in some way you can’t walk on it, those crutches come in pretty handy. They don’t lift you above anyone and sometimes they even hurt you, but they sure do help you get around with less pain.
I can certainly say that my life is broken and I can’t walk it alone. I am not better than anyone and I don’t try to stand on some pedestal saying I’m better than anyone else. I am as bad as a serial killer, a pathological liar, a rapist. I am no better than the next door neighbor or the hypocrite. Sure people sneer and make comments because I’m “that church girl” and that can hurt. I don’t try to fit in and I am not “cool” because I don’t do “cool” things like drink or do drugs, and sometimes I lose friends because of that and that hurts. But with Jesus as my crutch I have a lot less pain because He is there for me.
I’m the girl who changes her mind every two seconds (or faster.) I can’t make up her mind on what she wants or her she is. This girl has no idea where she’ll stand tomorrow, but never forgets about where she stood yesterday. I always over-analyze (I get that from my dad.) I write novels in my head, but I can’t write them down. When I try to speak them they seem to lose all meaning. I know exactly what advice to give, but not how to follow this said advice. People look to me for answers and for a strong shoulder
But I’ll let you in on a secret. I’m weak. I don’t know most of the answers and I can’t hold anything up because I’m being held up. I’m being uplifted every day by my Lord and Savior. He will pick me up when there is no one else or can or will. He will not put me on a pedestal, but he saves me. I cannot save myself nor can I save you.
I find that many people believe I hide behind my cross, my bible, and my prayers for strength and to understand this world. That’s exactly right. I am weak without that relationship and I will never fully understand this world piece by piece, but I can look at the overall picture and know the end result.
Now don’t get me wrong here. When I say Jesus is my crutch I am not yelling I’m strong, no, I am exclaiming that I am in fact weak.
