My time is finished in the DR, it feels impossible. How did the month completely fly by? God taught me so much in my first month of the world race. I have come to realize that there is nothing in my life that God hasn’t planned for me in advance, everything from village creek bible camp, to college, to the books I have read and conversations I have had in my past have played into my race. I find myself on this island solidifying things in myself that have been being revealed to me for years. How crazy!
So today is valentines Day… Today we celebrate love! I love love … Like I love love love love. Today, single and hundreds of miles away from my family and friends I am counting my blessings and realizing all of the ways I have been loved by my race family. The amazing ladies on this team really know what it means to walk in love and I could not be more amazed by them. I have learned what it feels like to have real truth spoken over me, what it means to have a community that I can go to with the grossest parts of my heart and be loved and what it looks like to have a family built with people I hardly know. Everything about this race amazes me.
I’m so not amazing with words or describing what God has revealed to me so hopefully I can make it through this next paragraph in one piece…
Its valentines day today and for a really long time I longed for relationship… for marriage, for something… 21 years into my life I have never fallen in love, never even gone out on more than one date with a guy. Sometimes that can be really discouraging but when God started speaking to me about what He has for my life all of those desires started falling away! Crazy… Boy crazy Karyn not so boy crazy anymore.
I long to be whole as a woman seeking God above all else, I long to find my confidence in Him and to know that no matter where I am in life, I am satisfied in Jesus and what He did for me. I know that I will never be given the recognition, love or knowledge of who I am from friendship, marriage, kids or really anything. Knowing who I am and walking with confidence as a daughter of the King is revelation that comes from God and can never be uprooted by anything any person can do or say.
It took me a really long time to learn what it means to be made whole in Christ. This year I expect that God is going to bring me to greater intimacy with Him than I have ever known, I can’t wait! I am so excited to receive all of the revelation from God about how much He loves me and how worthy I am in Him. I also cannot wait to be able I bring that revelation back home and to operate in that for the rest of my life.
This valentines Day please remember that you are so loved by the Creator! There is literally nothing that you can do, say or become that will make you more or less loved by God because His heart is so for you. Find your significance in Him and lose your insecurity in Him. He longs for you to walk confidently in who He created you to be because THAT’S WHY HE MADE YOU!
So to finish this thing off… Here’s a picture of my beautiful niece Margot… She holds my heart from half a world away.
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