I love it! As much as I’ve hated all of Europe so far… Romania makes up for it. As soon as I got off the train my heart was full.
To say I was miserable last month would be an understatement. It didn’t make any sense… I loved the people we met, our ministry was one of my favorites… But every day was a fight to get up and to do what God had planned. Plus I was homesick. I wasn’t mad at God, and I still 100% wanted to be on the race but I just hit a wall, and felt like I was on the edge of tears every day. As I prayed and asked God what Romania would look like, all he said was, “better,” and that was enough for me!
Better it is! Already! As we were driving through the small town, all sorts of crazy emotions flooded me at once. It was Romania that first captured my heart for missions long ago in 7th grade. It was the Roma people that God first broke my heart for when he called me on a journey that I could never even imagined. I was once again on the edge of tears but this time it was tears of joy, and of love, and of compassion, and passion! Finally my passion for the race is back!
I don’t know why last month had to be so hard, but I think it might have just been about perseverance. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that last month I had a random urge to become a long distance runner! When it sucked, I kept going. I kept pushing through when it was hard, and the results of both were pretty awesome! Last month he also whispered to me that he was preparing me for something, and I’m still not 100% sure if it was all about perseverance… But it’s a hint. When I heard the whisper I had a vision of me running so it makes sense.
But I feel at home again. It’s been a while since I’ve felt it, and I’m so thankful! So thank you for all your prayers! I’ve felt them! And please continue to pray for my renewed passion and joy on the race. I’m so excited to love this country!
