In the past months it has been easy for me to get lost in the logistics and not really even think about the journey I am about to go on. Getting my passport, vaccinations (*ahem*.. planning to get my vaccinations), and of course fund raising has been a full time job lately! However, as my countdown to launch is now under 100 days (WHAT?!!!) I am growing extremely excited and terrified! Today, for the first time since I was accepted to the race 3 months ago, I found myself thinking, "What have I gotten myself into!?" Don't worry, I'm in it for the long haul 🙂 but now that the initial excitement of being accepted and fundraising nerves are wearing down I can shift my worry to other things like lice, explosive diarrhea, and inadequacies. I find myself going to pray for my trip and just sitting in silence because I am completely at a loss. I can pray for the countries I will be traveling to, but who knows, my route could change. I could pray for similar needs I have read about in other World Race blogs, but my trip could be ENTIRELY different. Everyone says the World Race shatters your expectations, which is problematic if you are a typically "prepared" person. There is no way to really be prepared! Which leaves you with the best solution to worry and fear… Faith.
I have absolutely no idea what God is planning! I am giving up full control of this next year of my life (and hopefully all the years that follow). I've never had to flex my faith muscles this much, and it is so hard to just let go of all the worry and have faith. I have known from the moment I came across the World Race website I was supposed to go. I have known from the moment I saw my particular route three years later that it was made for me. I have seen God move incredibly in the hearts of my entire city supporting this journey, and I doubted them! But God provided. He had everything already planned out and still has everything under control for the future. I just have to be willing and along for the ride :).
To everyone who has supported me I want to say thanks! I will have an updated total of where I am financially next week. Please continue to pray for me and my squad (and future team!!!).
