Is this all really mundane??
I think God is in the small stuff
sometimes more than the big stuff. I have always thought I needed to
be doing really BIG things, or saying BIG prayers for God to show up
in powerful ways. What if God is in the small stuff and we fail to
see or hear Him because we are looking for the next big thing??
Well, many of you know that I felt led
by the Lord to move to Coleman, TX, or Big Country as many like to
call it. As God was showing me this big next move, I had images in my
head of youth flocking to me to hear the Good News, and the whole
town falling down in repentance, real dramatic like. (haha) I have
now lived here for nearly six months and neither of those things have
happened. But I will tell you the things that have happened that have
been far more beneficial.
I am building friendships with teenage
girls who have never heard that Jesus truly wants a relationship with
them and even longs to hear them call His name. This has not been an
easy task at times..My sister and I get to lead a purity group for teenage girls. These girls are learning about the love of God!!
There are days when I feel like, “What
the heck am I doing? God?? Are You in this???” And that is when He
sends a teen my way to talk. There are days when I feel the enemy
weighing in on me, and I know, God is in THIS!!!
A few years ago, I was diagnosed with
Graves Disease(Auto-immune hyperthyroidism) and struggled a great
deal, but was able to go into remission. Well, about a month ago, I
came out of remission. Both times I have had this disease rear it’s
ugly head have been very trying times for me. From head to toe, my
body feels rampant. I can hardly focus, let alone really pray. At
times it hurts to even stand, and I cry at the drop of a hat! (Of
course, I am a cryer anyways.)
So, as we are just beginning to really
minister to these girls, this disease comes back with a vengeance, and
suddenly I forget all about ministering and suddenly my mind is set
on fixing this problem. There have been days where all I did was cry
and say “GOD! HELP!” There were days when it felt like I was just
talking to the ceiling and really wasn’t getting anywhere, and
struggled to even believe at all. But God finally spoke to me! Not
with a loud bang, but in the small things.. He said” I love you.. I
do not expect you to be strong, perfect, happy, healthy or even
okay… I just love you.. Can you accept that?” Honestly, it was
and still is hard for me to just accept that God loves me and really
does not expect anything in return.
Not only has He been showing me that,
but also that all of this sickness is an attack because satan is very
angry at us for being here. Coleman, TX is a very dark place. There
are a lot of churches and “christians,” but when it comes down to
it, there is a battle in the heavenlies for this place. Sexual,
verbal and physical abuse run rampant here. Mostly girls are affected
by this. God is showing us that He has opened a door and satan hates
us for it. Not only have I been sick and doubting, but every other
person who ministers to the YOUTH are struggling as well. God is
moving! PLEASE PRAY FOR US!!! Pray for this town!
1 Corinthians 16:9
for a wide door for effective service
has opened to me, and there are many adversaries.
