God Knows My Name

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven’t written for a little bit but I just wanted to send you all an update.

     This past week I have been in Dublin, Ireland at a Christian Conference called The Awakening.  This week was a time of praise and worship and refreshing for our squad, as well as, all the other squads in the field and alumni of The World Race. 

     For me this time of reflection was a time to really come to terms with allowing God to Love me.  Often times I feel like I have to prove myself not only to God but to everyone on a normal basis.  I am going to be very vulnerable with you all right now. 

     I have an issue, one in which I think is completely ridiculous but at the same time can’t shake feeling this way.  This is something that I am working on.  The issue is that I feel like people don’t even know my name.  When I say people I literally mean ALMOST everyone.  I know that in High School I was super active and grew up with the same people for all of my life and in College, again, super active and I felt I knew pretty much everyone on my campus.  However, I still have this overwhelming feeling sometimes that I could walk up to someone I grew up with ALL my life and I think “they probably don’t even remember my name”  OR someone I even played a college sport with “they don’t know my name”  Sometimes I think that people won’t remember me after this year that I am gone. 

     All of this comes down to self-confidence and love.  The fact that I pass this judgement on many people I know truly reflects that I don’t allow the love people offer me to penetrate my heart.  I don’t always accept it….. This time at the awakening has made me realize that even if EVERYONE here forgets, doesn’t remember or doesn’t know my name that there is ONE who does.

     GOD knows my name.  He gave it to be before I was born.  He knit me together in my mother’s womb.  My Heavenly Father, is much like my Earthly Father in the fact that  He is SO proud of me.  They both, love me unconditionally and a way that NO ONE else can love me, no one.  God can’t stand to see me be someone I am not.  He created me for a purpose HERE AND NOW.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made. 

LOVE!