I have decided that I want to share with you all EXACTLY what I am going through. Mostly because I think that it is important that as you follow me you can see where I start, see how I change, see how I grow and see where I end after this experience. So I am going to be completely honest with you all!
If you have had a chance to talk with me after my week at Training Camp you will know that I had a very hard and challenging time. Some of you may know that for a long time I have wanted to learn more about the religion I have grown up in and I want to know more about WHY I believe what I have been taught. Basically I just wanted to gain more of an understanding. (Obviously I know I will never understand everything but I think I have been striving to start learning more)
Training camp introduced me to a lot of new experiences that I have never been a part of before. One of the newest being speaking in tongues. (I did not speak in tongues but others around me were experiencing it) Along with a few other things. Some of the new information that came about made me think a lot about wanting to know and understand what the Catholic Stance on these things were and what I thought about them after learning more then one explanation. I didn’t know if what I was being taught were things the Catholic Church and what I have grown up knowing were in agreeance or if they clashed. I had no idea and on top of that I had no idea what I really thought about it all.
Needless to say throughout this week I was confused, upset, and contemplated not going and spend the next portion of my life in just studying! I decided that before I make a decision I will take time to process everything going through my head as well as talk to my priest from home. I figured he would be able to help me understand the Catholic stance on some of these new experiences. (After talking with him I realized that pretty much everything that I was being taught were things that the Catholic church believes in too. He helped me to be comfortable with being uncomfortable in a new experience)
However, while at camp still, I decided to continue to trust God. I felt that He brought me to the World Race and if He really wanted me to go then He would let me know. I started to journal and pray that the Lord would give me a sign confirming whether I should or shouldn’t go! (See Part 2 for the rest of the story!!)
LOVE!
