Getting a job used to be easy. I used to be offered a job with every interview I had. I was confident that I was the best person for the job and knew how to sell myself as being so. But now I find it isn’t so easy anymore. I have put in many applications and have interviewed for many jobs. My confidence is still in tact, but I find it more difficult to sell myself.
I am often asked questions that lead me thinking “how can I answer that honesty and still get the job?” Questions that inquire about past mistakes I have made in my job, and what can I bring to the team? At one time I was so full of pride and confidence in myself I would know exactly how to answer those questions in just the right way that would get me hired almost instantly. But now?… Now I am older, wiser and humbled by my past mistakes that led me to the place I am today. I am not so sure that I am the best for the job, or that I would not continue to make mistakes that would make my employer regret hiring me. The only reason I can give to them as to why I should be hired over anyone else does not reside in my abilities to out shine anyone else. No… it is only for grace that my God is watching over me and providing for my every need that I should be hired. It is only God who can give me strength to do a job and to do it well. The things I know I can offer a team is a quality that if highly sought in most positions. I still have the ability to love those who need to love, and to see those who are unseen. I have the ability to give of myself sacrificially so that needs of people may be met.
I am more qualified now than I ever was when I had the pride and confidence that I was qualified a few years back, but now I find it harder than ever to boast of my accomplishments and to sway an interviewer with my words that flatter. So now, I find it harder than ever to sell myself, so that I can get the job, and do it well. I am beyond the ability to compete for the best and wonder how if I have lost what God has taken from me, that I will be able to survive by getting a job to meet my needs.
The answer is with in God. It is only by God’s grace that I will be offered a job. And it is only by God’s grace that I will be able to do the job to the glory of God. I am completely surrendered to a complete dependence on a God that promises to care for us.
As I am in the process of looking for a job, please pray for me to remain hopeful that I will not be forsaken and that the Lord will provide. This complete dependence on God is also needed as I raise funds for the World Race. I do not have a job, and even if I did, I would not be able to provide the funds needed for the race myself. Please consider donating a monthly amount to my account so that I can spend a year doing what I do best…serving the Lord by blessing his people.
