So, I had a scare today…
Some of you may know this about me, but I was born with glaucoma. It is a disease that causes irreversible blindness. When I was a baby, the doctors told my parents that, at the most, I would be able to see well enough to dress myself. You can imagine their feelings, hearing news of that sort.
At six months old, the doctors put me to sleep for my fist surgery to release some of the painful pressure. Shorty after entering the operating room, the doctors exited with news. They said they couldn't explain it, but it was gone. I can explain it: My parents had the elders of my church pray over me for healing… And God responded with a yes.
So I have lived 21 years glaucoma free, thanks to the Lord. Because I can see, I have been able to live a normal life, doing all the things I've ever wanted. But today… I saw that all slipping away.
Over the past few days, my right eye has been irritating me. I thought it was just my contacts, but after taking them out for a day, I discovered it had to be something more. So I wore my glasses for a day and when that didn't help, I got really worried. Today I woke up with, what felt like, a lot of pressure on my eye. There was also some slight blurriness present. So, I made an emergency eye appointment.
My dad met me at the doctors office, and because they didn't open for another hour, we had a lot of time to pray. In those few hours, I saw my life completely changing. I thought of all the things I would not be able to do if my glaucoma returned and I went blind. The first thing I though of was how I would have to potentially drop out of the race. But I knew that God created my eyes and it was His choice, like before, whether to let me see or not… So, I laid it at His feet.
I promised Him I would continue to tell of His faithfulness and the story of how He healed my eyes, if He would please let me be ok… I also promised to trust Him, no matter what the outcome.
After all the testing, the doctor told me how I did have high pressure the last time I was there, but that my pressure level was beautiful this time. I have patches of extreme dryness, causing blurred vision and pain, but other than that, I am ok…
I love the Lord with all my heart. He healed me long ago and has allowed the healing to continue for more than a season. I serve a faithful God, one who takes care of His children and reminds us of His faithfulness.
Today, I saw my life without His healing hand, and I was reminded of my need for Him.
