Dying to Myself

This week was a learning week.  Becoming uncomfortable is the new normal.  The words that kept being whispered to my heart were “Die to Self.”  I thought I did die to myself!  I gave up a year of my life at home, a bed, a normal toilet, constant flow of water, access to technology everyday, and my family and friends.  I have been serving my team and host family constantly.  I have little time to myself.  That is dying to myself, right?

Well, what I have been learning is that these words have been spoken to me during my time of ministry.  Yes, I have stepped out and been praying for people in front of my team, stepped out of being comfortable.  But, I have not preached in front of the village yet.  I have been learning so much this week and trying to apply them to my life.  Even though I lack in poetic words, have a unexceptionally high amount of stage fright, a nervous laughter, God can use all of those things to still bring about His glory and His message to bring people into a deeper relationship with Him or to plant seeds in their hearts.  It is not me that matters, it is all for God to be glorified in all that I do. 

I am going to die to myself this week and preach at least two times.  If God tells me to preach every night this week, in every village we go to, then by all means you better believe that I am going to be obedient!  I no longer want to be comfortable in my skin.  I want to glorify God in all that I do. 

Prayers:  The Holy Spirit speaks and that I do not keep Him from doing so.  I do not want my words to get in the way of what God has planned for His beautiful people.  Pray for the people in the villages that their hearts are on fire for God and desire that relationship with Him, whoever speaks.