Ever have that feeling that something is missing? Or the feeling that you’re just kind of lost? How about questioning your purpose in life? Or the feeling of unending sadness?
I’ve been there.
It’s not easy. It’s not pretty. It’s not living.
If you’ve ever felt any of these things, this letter is to you. The first thing I want to tell you is: YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
You’re not the first person to feel this and you certainly won’t be the last. But I want you to know there is light in all the darkness. This was a hard lesson for me to learn. And I wish I had someone who had experienced it before to reach out and tell me there was hope.
So that’s what I’m doing today. I’m telling you there is hope.
When I was battling depression a few years ago, I never thought it would end. I didn’t know how to get out of this “slump” as everyone called it. When things took a turn for the worse, I found myself completely lost and knew that this was not the way I was suppose to live my life. There was/is more out there. I was created to do more than just be stuck in a place of emptiness. My first task was to find out why I felt so empty. What was missing?
After being asked to church by a friend and talking with some other friends, I realized what it was. It was Jesus.
Growing up, I was always involved in the church. I sang in the church. I went to youth group. I was confirmed and baptized in the church. But what I realized years later was that I lacked a relationship with Him. And because of that, it allowed darkness to creep in.
God doesn’t just want us to know who He is and obey Him. He loves us and wants a relationship with us. He wants to speak with us and live in community with Him and our other brothers/sisters. He created us. If you don’t believe me, read it.
Isaiah 43:1-7 and Ephesians 1:4.
He created you. He created you beautifully. He created you perfectly. And He had you planned long before the beginning of creation.
I’m not here to preach to you (even though I think that’s exactly what I’m doing). I’m here to tell you that you are not alone. I’m here to tell you that you have a Creator and He loves you deeply. I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to change anything. And I’m here to tell you there is light.
Having a relationship with God isn’t the magical fix, and it doesn’t make difficult things magically disappear, but it makes things easier. And it makes life worth living. Who wouldn’t want that?
Being on the race has shown me that there are a lot of lost people in this world I don’t want you to be one of them.
I love you beautiful people.
Xoxo,
Kaitlin
