As I have recently accepted my position in the world race, I have already began feeling a whirlwind of emotions. Some days I wake up like “Can I go already or what?” and other days it seems appropriate to hide in bed and contemplate why on earth I am leaving my comfort zone to live in such wild conditions. I think that’s normal, and I would be concerned if I weren’t feeling a bit unconfident at times.
Today was the hardest yet. I woke up experiencing so much doubt about time, finances, preparation, and everything else about the trip. The enemy has a way of turning one little thought into something life-changing. I had all these ridiculous emotions and thoughts run through me. “Am I really someone that can do this?” “There is absolutely no way I will raise enough money by the time I leave.” “Should I be going for 11 months, my first trip?” etc. I was feeling so defeated and frustrated with myself…But God.
After contemplating all these thoughts I turned to God’s word, and he revealed this to me. Jesus answered them, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only will you do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, ‘Be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ it will happen. Matthew 21:21 NET
Isn’t it so encouraging that we serve a God of such clarity and love? He is so good, and so faithful. It is so important to feed our faith, and allow God to work for us. I know I will continue to feel a roller coaster of emotions at times, but I am so encouraged that each time I do, he reveals clarity and comfort in his word.
As my Pastor Chinedum Anwuegbu put it “All of this mess, all of my mess, BUT GOD”.
I am going to attach an encouraging teaching My Pastor Chin did regarding this message! Hope you are encouraged.
Have a beautiful day!
God Bless.
