What is Super feedback??
It may sound like the latest avenger…and if it was, I’m pretty sure it would win any battle…humbling it’s opponent to his/her knees, leaving them crying, “Thank-you,” as it just sits with them, patting their back.
Super feedback is actually not as bad as some make it sound. Once a month or so, our team has tried to do it during one of our team times. It’s where each person comes with one positive and one constructive form of feedback for each teammate.
Ours was last Wednesday. Most of the week prior, I had been praying through this. Wednesday morning came, and I had everything I needed for my teammates. Then I asked the Lord to feedback me on ME.
I was reading that morning in Numbers…glorious Numbers. No one ever talks about Numbers…but SUCH a good book 
So, Numbers, Chapter 11, the Israelites have been brought out of Egypt and into the wilderness. They’re now away from home…what was their home. They begin to long for how things were, saying things like: “I remember when we used to eat this, and it was so good, and so much better…can’t we just go back there?”
And in that instance, the Lord grants them their request. He gives them the meat they ask for…and they die for it.
Now, I’m not saying the Lord will smote me for desiring comforts of home…but am I longing for what I once was? Am I longing for the comforts of what I was before? Is comfort my goal? Am I trusting Him for where He has me now?
Continuing in Numbers, they begin facing these other trials of the wilderness, and they begin groaning against Moses again…there is all kinds of jealousy and envy…they are never satisfied.
Then, they come to the land the Lord has for them. That’s right…THE land. The promised inheritance.
But there are giants. And they don’t want to go there. They want to go home. They want to go back to a time when things were comfortable and familiar…even if that means bondage.
They don’t want to go in and face what the Lord has in front of them even when the Lord says He’ll go before them.
And even when the Lord says, “Hey, this is yours…so GO.” They didn’t want it. And they just murmured and complained. And so they never got to enter into the promise the Lord was so excited to deliver them into.
So, the Lord just kept bringing to mind instances during the week that I had been murmuring…about how things were or weren’t, about how difficult it was living with people that didn’t live the same way I chose to, about reactions and behaviors that I didn’t know how to respond to…basically, I was murmuring because things weren’t going the way I thought they should…that way being MY way.
In the end, I was murmuring against where the Lord had me, and who He’d placed me with. I was grumbling in this wilderness away from home …where I was being asked to CHOOSE Him.
So the Lord spoke to me before feedback had even begun…
“Find Me in every situation. Remember that I brought you here. I brought you here to see what was in your heart…to see if you would choose Me. You read about the Israelites…I brought them out of so much, and I’m bringing you out of much. They were afraid of the giants, but you are not to be afraid. Don’t lust for old comforts…let Me comfort you fully. Don’t complain, don’t envy, but take your position as My daughter.”
So I walked into feedback with that, and it was awesome because two of my teammates gave me feedback on complaining…and had I not had those moments with the Lord before, I don’t know that I would have received those so well.
SO…
Praise: I had prayed that the Lord would prepare me for what I was about to receive, and He totally did.
Request: May I continually be reminded that this place in life that I am at (and any place that I will be in the future), is a place where I get to choose. I can always long for how something once was…for the comfort of the familiar…or I can eat what He is providing and follow Him into the land where He is leading.
This land with the giants…and I can either complain and whine about them…or I can demolish them.
This land is mine, boys and girls, this land is mine.
