I wrote this
poem upon recognizing a gross fact; my fulfillment, happiness, and desires were
the aim of my life; my highest goal. It was through Christ I sought to obtain
this goal, believing myself to be serving Him with my life. On the contrary, I
was serving myself with
His life.
Since my
discovery the Lord has planted pure and genuine hope within me of a life lived
for Him in true devotion, which only brings exuberant joy. My life is meant to
bring Him glory, satisfaction, to minister to His needs and desires, to serve
Him, and by doing so; serve others.
Though
outwardly this may appear the case, my heart had deceitful motives of its own.
Now, my heart is in search of ways to minister to Him. I pray daily that God
would reveal ways that I may love and serve Him better. I long to know ways
that I can minister to His needs and desires, not my own. In worship I want to
give, not just receive. In prayer I want to praise, not just petition. I want
my heart to be in a position to serve Him, not be served by Him. I pray He
matures my love for Him daily!
