Back in the day she hated me… She didn’t know me. Back in the day before I bombed her with truth she believed that she had to fight for herself, her defenses were always up. Never allowed anyone in because it was too much of a risk. She used biting hateful words… She fought her way through life.
Back in the day she didn’t believe I loved her… In fact she didn’t believe anyone did. She was wounded and scared and wanted to hide at the mention of the word “love” it was a foreign concept.
She was so scared… She created control because she had none. Nobody was safe, she held it all in.She thought she was so strong… Nothing could touch her, she learned not to care. She learned to not need people because people were always threatening, people always took things they didn’t earn… People always hurt. She had walls so high… Walls so thick… She’d fooled herself into thinking she was untouchable.
Not too long ago she hated me. She laughed at the mention of me… At the mention that I loved her or had an interest in her life. She’d never known me enough to see me in her life. From her perspective I’d never been there for her… I’d known and seen the abuse, neglect, torment, suicidal thoughts, depression, pain, and didn’t stop it. I’d never been there.
Not too long ago she refused to talk to me… She laughed at the thought that a relationship with me was for her. Not too long ago she’d refused to give me any acknowledgement… She refused to waste her breath and time on me. And Not too long ago she’d dared me to show up.
Not too long ago she realized she’d run herself dry of hope… She’d become so tired of having to be strong… Defending herself was draining … Not too long ago she realized she had nothing else so i got a “why not” and I lit up with joy!
She didn’t know it till later but when her parents didn’t want to love, protect and raise her- I got to!
I’ve walked her through really dark places… Places that not too long ago she’d of refused to ever touch again. Not too long ago I got to teach her who Love is for the first time in her life and see it begin to soften her heart. Not too long ago I got to earn her trust because she’d let down enough of her walls to give me a chance… And from that she learned to love and trust me… And man do I love it!
Not too long ago I got to read her my word… We would wake up in the morning and go get breakfast and I’d read my word to her and open her heart to truth about who I am. I got to share my life with her.
Not too long ago she was finally ready to walk through healing… I got to download revelations of lies she’d been believing all her life and ways those lies were destroying everything in her life. Not too long ago I asked her to hand those over to me 🙂 and she did!
It hurt… She had to remember things and feel things she never wanted to again… She had to walk down dark dark alleys but I got to hold her hand and speak truth and life over her the entire time. I got to teach her how to let people in… How to give and receive love not just from me but from others. I got to place wild passions in her heart and see her run with them! I got to replace her heart with mine! I got to take her heart that didn’t care for anyone … Her heart that was so busied and scared it hurt to look at and give her mine.
I was there when her heart broke for the world… Not too long ago I got to run with her as she pursued everything I placed before her. I remember the day she discovered my Spirit living in her 🙂 probably one of our favorite days. Her heart was so hungry and I couldn’t make her wait any longer and she hasn’t stopped since.
I trust her with my words… She speaks them in the authority I’ve given her… She refuses to back down when I give her the go ahead. I love hearing her talk to me… I love when she asks me for understanding and asks me what to pray and then speaks everything word for word … I love running with her… I’ve made her vibrant.
And not too long ago I asked her to forgive… I asked her to love herself enough to forgive and really walk free. Not too long ago we won a war together! Not too long ago did we shock the enemy by taking back victory together. Not too long ago we laughed as the enemy laid there burned because she chose to walk in love and truth instead of lies and hurt.
She says yes everytime I ask of her… Shes amazing… You wouldn’t recognize her from who she was not all that long ago. My Spirit is alive in her and we aren’t done. I love to place new things before her because she grabs hold and we run! I love to watch her grow and pull things down from Heaven… She forces my hand 🙂 and I love it.
I’ve given her a faith that just takes over … She trusts and knows she’s loved. I release my Spirit over her often because I love to watch her stop in her tracks and get blown over as more and more of who she was melts off and I replace areas with radiant light. I never hold back from her … I’ve placed Kingdom destiny all over her … I’ve spoken such things over her that she is incapable of standing even when glimpses of them are revealed. I’ve called her to change atmospheres… I’ve called her to raise the dead… I’ve called her to break lies and strongholds through truth. I’ve called her to a life of worship. I’ve called her to a life of deep intimacy… I’ve called her to drop bombs. I’ve called her to take back the land. I’ve called her to laugh in the face of darkness… I’ve called her to be my desire. I’ve called her to be taken over by my presence… And she’s amazing
