Im tired at looking at who I am and comparing it against what Papa calls me and whats been spoken over my life and the two not matching up.
Thats really the essence of what I want to share with you. Im just done with it …especially when who I’ve been created to be is available today and I don’t have to wait until theres a greater level of maturity or understanding.
So the Lord had been nailing me with living before an audience of one…living only before Him and in that I found myself more free than id been in a long time. Then I started to go back and look at words id gotten and relistened to whats been prophesied over my life and it was things that I believed but I didnt see in my life.
Its so great to receive this super awesome word from someone and be so encouraged that the Lord is speaking to us and calling us to. It might only be me but then I have had these moments of being amped up in the moment and then ill wish it to happen to death but I forget to step out on that thing and start living from the place He’s already given me.
We’ve gotta give Holy Spirit something to work with if He’s going to do something new and powerful in our lives. He doesnt place the ground beneath your feet before you step ….He wants you to take the step first and then He’ll provide the ground beneath you. You want to be used prophetically and be used to pray and declare healing? Open your mouth even when you don’t have the words and give Spirit a voice … give Him something to walk out on and touch people.
Be full! Full means full man… You’ve got it already…Gods Spirit has been poured out and you are a recipient … not just a little portion, you’ve been filled!
No, I don’t always feel like it or act like it…but why can’t I? It is so possible to eradicate the excuse of “only human” simply because we live from a place of such deep intimacy and cultivate of life yielded to our King.
Im trying to figure this one out…living from who I’m created to be instead of just who I am right now. Its uncomfortable to completely surrender. And if I want a life of deeper intimacy and more overflow then I’ve gotta do something different than what I’ve been doing…shake it up and agitate.
Moment of real honesty. I suck at reading my Bible….no, I mean like I really suck at it. There was one month on the race that I read it everyday because someone challenged me to but outside of that I can count the number of times I’ve pulled out my Bible on like three fingers. My junior year of college a hunger came over me and I read it every morning for that year but since then its been real infrequent. Im really not great at it. Id much rather just spend time in the presence just enjoying the closeness of Jesus and allowing Him to download things to me. However…now I want more. I want to relearn His character and His heart …I want to know more about them and I want a hunger again to not only meet Him in the secret place but eat from His words too.
Ive got like this big circle in my head ..To live only before an audience of one…stepping out into more things that are ultimately who I’ve been created to be and becoming that identity in Kingdom… stepping out means nothing if its not deeply rooting in intimacy … You can see great fruit from your actions and miss your Dad… Wanting to learn cultivating intimacy in a new way … and to live in the fullness is to have strong relationship (which you can only have if both parties know each other well…like really well) and to live from the secret place and as a byproduct of that oneness with His character and His heart then my focus is automatically shifted to only Him and theres no worry about who else is watching and then I look around and see that Im really seeing the prophetic in my life happen… the things that are spoken over me actually happening… but its only because I love my Dad and He loves me and we hang out and know each other.
I just want to stop making excuses for myself and cutting myself off from whats available… If fullness is really what is being offered then I want it. There isn’t like different amounts of Holy Spirit per person…you either have Him or you don’t. And once you do then its just about giving Him the platform to go and suddenly you are walking in your Kingdom identity because its not about you and never has…but you do get to enjoy it all! Because its just fun to be with Jesus!
