Theres an element of feeling bad every time I go substantial periods of time without writing a blog. I know y’all back home do read them and do a great job of keeping up with me as I’m hoping between countries and its always nice when I can give you an update and allow you to enter my world for a little while.
It can be hard to put life into words these days..parts feel completely normal and other parts are so amazing and huge but they are hard to adequately share. Right now there is a mix of both happening.
Gua Musang, Malaysia is a small town where we walk everywhere and we still aren’t totally clear what we will be doing this month…at some point we will teach some english and hopefully do some flood relief. The sights start to seem normal…Im walking around and see these rock and tree covered hills and forget to take in their beauty sometimes. Never really knowing what is on a menu is just a thing and you learn how to order. Its a treat when you can communicate in english and actually be understood fairly well. Finding real grocery stores is like finding a treasure chest. These are some of the things that just happen throughout the day. You’ll never really understand roadside eating until you are here doing it and it doesnt seem sketchy.
Within all the abnormalities that have just become everyday life on the race there are the things I want to be able to share with you but I’m unsure exactly how. Right now the Lord is honestly doing a lot within myself and my first thought was to write a blog! Then the next second Papa convicted me to live it before I write about it.
Ive got this terrible habit of taking what He says and sharing it like I know what I’m talking about when I’ve not even lived from that place yet. Ive started to annoy myself haha and I’m just finding out that I do this but its annoying. I don’t want to write about what life should be, I want it to be my life.
Thank you as you offer me grace to actually live this stuff instead of it just being head knowledge…we both know thats almost completely useless so I’m not settling for it anymore. As we spent some individual time with the Lord today He took something so much deeper than I could have ever asked and dealt with things I didnt even know where there and then brought it full circle and blew my mind just a little. These are the things I want to write and share but for now He’s convicting me to hold back and really let it take over my heart and transform …I’m trusting that y’all are cool with that 😉
(Please consider helping me to meet this final fundraising deadline, I was supposed to have all my funding in on the 1st of March so Im still working on getting that in 🙂 everything helps and Im so grateful for everything over this past year or so … its been amazing!)
