Well, I have had The World Race on my heart for about a year and a half…I “accidentally” stumbled across it as I was in search for a missions group/trip. I’ve always had a desire for missions, kids, women, people, but never really put it into motion.
I believe every phase of our life is simply a preparation for our next endeavor. When we prep our hearts, our spirit, our very being He is causing a stirring in us to awaken our soul and cause us to get out of our comfort zone and tune into His call/will for our lives.
So I did it….I remember praying one night in my floor and just knelt down in front of my Bible crying and I heard “Go, just Go”. I know He has placed this desire in my heart for some reason…but I kept wondering…is this really God telling me to go…to do this thing called the World Race? I prayed about it and then in February applied for it….sent my application fee and then got an interview set up! I was nervous and excited at the same time because I knew this interview was going to get dirty and deep…diving into my past that has made me who I am today, but a past full of hurts, pains, regrets, mistakes that I didn’t want to bring up….stuff I haven’t even talked with only but 2 of my best friends…however I also realized that all of this “dirt” I’m calling my past…is MY testimony and I will tell it again and again and again….the enemy has kept me quiet for this long and it’s time to use my testimony to bring people/friends/family into HIS kingdom. Amen!
I finished the interview with a closing prayer and had to wait for what seemed to me 2 months instead of weeks….I kept doubting, questioning, wondering if they would even want “somebody like me” on this trip…..Two weeks goes by and I’m laying in my bed crying/praying out to God and just knowing that I didn’t get accepted because they didn’t call me EXACTLY two weeks after the interview. I heard Him tell me, “just give it to me Julie”. That’s when I realized…I wasn’t having the faith I needed to have…I was doubting myself…which in turns means I was doubting Him. If He places a desire in our hearts and it’s His will…He will bring it to pass…we just need to choose to turn it over 100% to Him and trust in Him that His will be done….
So, needless to say…they called me the very NEXT day and I can’t even begin to tell you how more excited/nervous I became….I knew that this is what HE wants me to do!! I’m trying to take each day one step at a time, but find myself fast forwarding to training camp in the fall and January 2014…I feel like my head is spinning a million different ways! Soooo excited to see what God has in store for my squad/leaders/myself/etc.
