The process of abandonment truly begins… I have been preparing for this. I knew and desired this to be a trip of abandoning everything comfortable. But, as I soared high in the in the plane, my spirit sunk down and the tears flowed. Part of it was the weariness and the hours of travel, but my heart was hurting. God was beginning the process of stripping me away from everything that I know. This is a good thing; something that draws a person so close to the cross. It is a process of awakening the soul and becoming fully alive.
As such, this is the thing the enemy seeks to attack and destroy. He hates seeing a person come fully alive in Christ. I felt attacked. Satan was feeding me lies that I wasn’t supposed to be here and that I was not good enough. The enemy comes to kill and destroy, but Christ comes with truth. The truth may be that I am not any of the things I think I should be, but that is where Christ comes through. He is strong when I am weak. It is the place where I dig in and find out who I am in Christ, when I have nothing else. This is where I am at now. God is showing me my identity in Him. I am learning that I am truly a child of God. God is brick by brick, unstacking the wall built up around my heart. I have been numb to His truth for so long and I have protected my spirit from knowing the fullness of Christ. I know these things in my head, but now they are being spoken into my heart. I expect this to be something that I learn more fully as the year progresses. Stay tuned for the awakening. My prayer is that reading this would awaken more parts of you.
Pray against the spiritual warfare that we will face. The enemy wants to attack the work of Christ.
