I am going on the World Race because I am not content with my “comfortable” life. I refuse to accept the limitations of my fears, of my insecurities and of the expectations of this world. I ask God to crush the walls I have built up around my heart to “protect” me. I will defy the gravitational pull from society to enter the working world after college. I want to be exorbitantly changed this year. I want to live radically alongside my God. I want to be tenaciously challenged. I need to be forced out of my comfort zone and to be pushed to the extreme. I want to be given a new view of people. I desire to see people through the eyes of God, to hear people through the ears of God, to love with God’s heart and to discover people as God does. I want to loose all pre-judgments. I want to live authentically, radically, passionately, boldly as one redeemed and loved by God. I long for God to awaken these things in me. I want to take hold of the courage God has placed in me. I am weary of standing by, quiet and protected, yet regretful and hungering for more. I am done escaping vulnerability and openness. I want to be in a place where I can’t depend on myself, or my parents, or my friends, or the eases here – where it is just me and God. I want to be a disciple of Christ. I want to enter into lives, to walk along side people in community and to experience Emmanuel with them. I want to be broken for the pain and desperation in the world; to move from this complacent state of numbness. I want to know my identity in Christ and speak that truth to others. I yearn to be intimately connected and to live an authentic, Christ-driven life in tandem with my teammates.
God has endowed me with intense passion to serve people in need and a love for adventure and experiencing new places. I am thrilled for what He has for my future and how the World Race will prepare me and change me forever. I am glowing in anticipation for the journey that lies ahead! God did not call us to an easy or perfect life; He promised us struggle, persecution, and warfare. I am ready to be in that place where I am completely dependent on God, a place where I have no choice but to lean on my Father.
As I think about how my life is about to change and the fact that God
choose me I can do nothing but echo the words of Moses – “Who am I, that I should go?” But in all of God’s faithfulness and patience I hear him reply that He will certainly be with me, that he has chosen me and he will use me. Great things will be done in His name.
