In the Old Testament, The Lord had to do a lot of miraculous things from Heaven to enact His will on the earth.
In the New Testament, He begins to invite us into these deeds because of the practice of our faith and the presence of His Holy Spirit.
How this works is not incredibly clear to me.
I guess that’s why they call it faith?
I think about Peter walking down a street and people being healed by his mere shadow. That is the presence of the Spirit.
Yet in the Old Testament, there wasn’t a lot of “laying on of hands” or praying for healing.
Jacob hobbled the rest of his life after he wrestled with God.
Jobs friends didn’t do it once.
So what changed?
While Christ was God Himself made flesh, His last words to us were to “heal the sick, cast out demons, tell other about Him and make disciples of men”.*
There was a shift in power. Instead of imposing His power to direct His people, The Lord now invited us into those moments, whether is it for someone else’s miraculous moment or our own.
We are the catalyst to reality colliding with revelation and revealing God’s glory in His creation.
For the past few years, I’ve been afflicted with a skin condition called psoriasis. Before the race it was prophecied that I would be healed before I went home, and since April it seemed like it had happened. As of the beginning of this month, however, it’s never been worse.
As I sit here wondering when my medical miracle is going to occur, I am constantly met with optimistic eyes and praying hands that communicate their faith that The Lord does want to heal me.
Then I doubt. I doubt that word I heard before even coming on the Race that He wanted to heal me. I think that maybe He changed His mind.
Even worse, I think there is something I am missing that is preventing the healing from happening.
It’s beyond frustrations at this point.
I have people praying for me.
I have God’s promise.
I have the Holy Spirit.
What else do I need?!
Now, I just want to know. If this is something I’m just supposed to “live”with forever than so be it. I’m just tired of wondering what His will is for me. I don’t want any doubt lingering in my Spirit about the goodness of God.
The reality is whether I am healed or not He is still good.
More than good. He’s lovingly and relentlessly perfect in His affection for me.
But I want to witness scripture becoming real.
I want the promise I believe He gave me to heal my body.
He’s done it once with my heart, why wouldn’t He want to do it again?
Habakkuk 2:2-3 says:
And then God answered: “Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what’s coming. It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn’t lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It’s on its way. It will come right on time. (Habakkuk 2:2, 3 MSG)
SO THIS IS ME WRITING IT DOWN. NOW I WAIT FOR ITS APPOINTED TIME. I BELIEVE I WILL SEE THE HEALING OF THE LORD.
*And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up serpents with their hands; and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick, and they will recover.” (Mark 16:15-18 ESV)
*Title from Pixar’s The Incredibles. If you didn’t know that, you are DEFINATELY missing out. 😉
