August 13, 2012
Our two teams woke up today knowing we were going to play for a lady named Lydia that was suffering from cancer who had been told she did not have long to live.. I truly feel that was not one of who really knew what we were going to walk into. It took us a little while walking through the town. It gave us all time to prepare our hearts to cry out in prayer. We finally arrived at the house just as Lydia’s son returned home. As the opened the gate we followed Pastor Antonio into the house and then into the room where she lay. Her head lay in the lap of her sister. As soon as you saw her you could see the immense pain she in. Immediately my heart longed to begin praying for healing. Sometimes we are quick to start doing something not knowing what God’s plan is in it. Pastor started to talk to us and told us we could play music quietly as not to cause Lydia stress and pray. As he released us we immediately started doing just that. I was sitting in the floor at the side of the bed and began to pray for her, as those around did the same as well as singing. We you see some in that condition and knowing the kind of God our God is your first reflex is to pray for healing. You want to pray for the healing of her physical body so she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. As I was praying more and more God was not calling me to pray for healing, even though I did at times, he was calling me to pray for peace for Lydia. There were points where the only words I could speak were just peace. As I am praying for peace I was still trying to figure out what that meant. The more I prayed and heard the prayers around me I began to realize God was not going to heal her in the sense that we so longed for. He was calling her Home, and he wanted her to be at peace with that as well as her family. The question that keeps coming up for me is: Is there a greater healing than being called to be Home with the Father? What greater healing is there than finally being completely spotless no longer able to feel pain? The flesh in me cannot fully grasp what it means to be okay with your physical earthly body being no more. My spirit longs for it. I learned today there is still so much of God I do not understand, yet I praise in the mist of my confusion. He answers the questions my heart longs to know the answers to. And more and more I realize the importance of obedience in what he calls us to do. Lord I serve you even when I do not fully understand.
After dinner Pastora Cata told us the family had called and told her that God had called Lydia Home today. They wanted us to know that felt that we ushered her to the Father. And that she was finally at peace from the pain, and that they were also at peace that she was Home with the Father. We woke up this morning we did not know that was part of God’s plan for us. Praise God that we were able to overcome what I flesh longed for and cried out for her. Afterwards I could not help but think this is only the beginning of experiences like this. Lord please allow us to be obedient when you call us into battle. All I know is that after today I will never be the same.
