All it takes is a moment in prayer to change your whole
perspective. I was not into worship or the talks today. I know they were
powerful and people were being moved to tears all around me but I was just not
feeling it. I was not being moved. I was in business mode. I was too worried
about making sure that all the things around me were taken care of to truly
hear what God was saying through everyone that was talking. I reached into my
pocket and realized that I didn’t have my cell phone. It had fallen out of my
pocket in Amy’s bungalow earlier during family time. Weston and Melina were
coming in on the train so I needed to have it to ensure that they got in
safely. I left worship to go grab it.
During the several hundred meter walk back to the bungalow I
just prayed out loud. I didn’t care if someone heard me I was just praying. I
thanked God for where he had brought each of the team members this year. I
thanked him for exposing areas of my life that I had been concealing. Areas
that I had worked so hard to hide. Areas that, because they were hidden, were
given power and control. I prayed and thanked him for the opportunity to
worship him. I thanked him for his Grace. I thanked him that when we worship
him, when we sing praise, we are doing it with breath that he gave us. We use
the voices he gave us. I thanked him that the energy we use to dance for him is
energy that he gave us. I thanked Him that the joy that we give God through our
praise is joy He gave us first.
I returned to worship only minutes later but with a whole
new perspective. I was so filled with joy. Joy that I didn’t create. Joy that I
couldn’t work for or produce on my own. Rather joy that He gave me. Pure
untainted joy. I felt a release
standing there dancing before the Lord. Not caring in the slightest bit what
the person next to me thought. Barely even conscious that they were next to me.
I didn’t know the words to the song they were singing but frankly it didn’t
matter because I was worshiping God through dancing and praying with the joy that
he gave me. A completely new perspective given to me through only a couple minutes of prayer. I thank God
for moments like these.
