Asia has been incredible! I’ve loved it here. But now, I am on to the next leg of my journey- Africa. We are going to Malawi first and I could not be more excited. I know that God has some crazy stuff planned for us and it is going to be nothing short of amazing.
Because of the greatness that lies ahead of us, I am already being attacked- by self doubt. I’ve been living under it’s spell my whole life, but recently he’s been speaking louder. He has infiltrated my mind, spreading poison that paralyzes my growth and intimacy with God. I’ve become passive in my thinking allowing the voice of doubt to speak the lies of the devil.
I’ve seen that every time I plant a seed of faith by believing that God will do something great, the second I say amen doubt is standing there with a torch in his hand, ready to burn it all down, ready to discredit and destroy what I’m trying grow.
Doubt has a problem though… I am on to him. I’ve awoken from the slumberous state he’s kept me in. He tried to be crafty and whisper softly in my ear, cleverly coating his poisonous pills with deceit. And I have been taking my falsely prescribed daily dosage. It’s like “handcuffs for my mind.” But his reign in my head is no longer unnoticed. It’s time to fight the silence. Every time he speaks, I will speak louder. My thoughts are weaponized with Truth now. I know who I am- a son of the Most High and I know that my King has overcome the world. And through Him, so will I (John 16:33)
Jesus constantly spoke out who He was, who sent Him, and who gave Him authority and power whenever the Pharisees questioned Him. I must do the same every time self doubt questions me. No more passive suffering in silence, listening to doubt’s numbing words. I have to be persistent in reminding Him that I already have victory, and his outcome is defeat. I just gotta stay awake and fight.
