In my last blog, “An Old Chinese Dream”, I reflect of a dream of me going to China. I spent years believing that my dream was sufficient, but avoided entertaining the idea that I was to be a missionary in Asia.
So I decided to apply for the Expedition route because I noticed China was on the list. I needed to answer God’s question. Will I go to China?
China was Manistry month, a chance for the man in the squad to travel together. Our team consist of seven highly motivated extremely intelligent individuals who understand that plans usually never go as plan. This is why we came up with our team name, Team “WingIt”… These Man Of God are as follows…
(Joshua, Caleb, Justin, Aaron, Taylor, Kelsey, and Thaddeus.)
We formed up with one main goal to love China, with a very short wish list.
See Pandas. 
Eat All the Food.
Ride Tibetan Horse.
Crash A Photo-shoot.
Find A Brewery.
Celebrate Thad’s Birthday.
Go to an Chinese Opera.
Watch an Epic Sunrise, over China’s Mountains.
Meet A Chinese Christian.
Find A Park and Play Soccer.
Eat Ice Cream In Every City.
Oh Yeah Forgot One.
Say Yes! To being a missionary here in China.
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A page straight out of my journal. Day 149 and Day 150
I plan to post a blog when I get into Kazakhstan. I need to spend time searching what is deep in my heart. Yes, I did enjoy China, but I did not love China or the people here. I plan to travel back to China but God willing I will travel to see different parts of China….
I’m a risk taker a true thrill seeker, but this seems a bit difficult. Like a seesaw, I am up and down with my decision to say yes fully to God. The challenge to learn Chinese, blend in with the crowd, learn the culture, find work, find Christians, fills my mind with doubt….
When I arrived in Kazakhstan, I felt different. People here love me. I love the people, the food, and the beauty that is all around me. I feel tempted to ask God to send me here because of all the beautiful woman walking pass. This is an harder than what I thought before, because I am attractive to the idea of being somewhere like here….instead of China.
—-Jesus once spoke to me when I was debating going to China.
He has ask me to smile in the dark. He has asked me to surrender all, so I will. —–
I know in the light of everything I must follow Christ and go to a place that I do not want go. Oh how I wish it could be easy but being a missionary is not suppose to be easy. Though I don’t understand now, I trust in the fact that it will make sense when I walk in faith. I walk in faith with the hope that the Holy Spirit is having freedom to move me in the way He wants me to be. I trust that China will meet Christ. I know that this is not only about teaching the Gospel of Hope, but learning that I can go because the Chinese need hope.
