Coming to training camp my mind was filled with expectations and ideas of what was going to take place. I came with the expectation of meeting teammates, doing crazy outdoor activities and some where along the way I WOULD encounter God. As some my expectations were met one was not. I have to say it is Tuesday April 8th and we have been here for almost four full days and I have not yet encountered God, however, something greater has taken place, GOD HAS ENCOUNTERED ME. He has scooped me up and brought me into his presence setting aside my short comings, my flaws, my insecurities, and all the crap and baggage that I am carrying around everyday. I carried this stuff because there was a part of me that bought into the lie that things must always look good from the outside, however, the total opposite is true. It is ok to not be ok, and He just wanted me to crawl up into his lap and let him speak truth into those lies. So I crawled up there with hesitation and God just poured his spirit of truth into the lies and all the pains and insecurities were exposed. As the pain began to flood in and I just wanted to run but God just held on tighter, lavishing love on me. As I am doing my best to describe this moment I cannot put it into words the feeling of the Creator God just holding you in his arms and whispering in your ear “YOU ARE FREE.” As I share this moment with my wife we are rejoicing because of the freedom that has been whispered into our marriage. It has been hard for the both of us and a ton of internal healing to process but the initial pain is worth the time spent in the arms of the Father. More has been done for my marriage in the past 3 days than almost the 4 years we have been married. Jesus said “…I have come so you may have life and have it abundantly.” I am beginning to see the abundant life and once you have tasted it nothing else can satisfy that taste but the one true God. So crawl up into the lap of the Father and listen for that whisper “YOU ARE FREE.”
