Just recently I returned from training camp for the race, and switching routes was just the beginning of the exciting journey for the week. There were off and on feelings of inadequacy leading up to training camp that I was not worthy to be a part of such a great movement for Christ because of my past. I am not the most Bibically versed either, so that added in to the doubts I had in myself, but I KNEW missionary work is what my heart desired.
Once I got to training camp, it felt like all of those doubts and fears were shattered. I have never been to a place with so many people on fire for Jesus. Every single one of them were/are more than happy to give me confidence in what the Lord has called me to do. I truly gained an entire new family just by being at training camp for a week. We had amazing worship time, awesome fellowship, and multiple times where the Lord just really showed up for us.
One of the nights, after a speaker was done with his talk, we all took time to invite The Holy Spirit into our hearts. As we were doing that, I felt like I had 40 extra pounds on my chest. One of the amazing staff came over and prayed over me, and when he finished it felt like 100 pounds was taken off of my chest!!! In that very moment all the feelings of inadequacy and “not good enough” were stripped from my mind. God was telling me and reassuring me that this trip is exactly where he wants me to be, and that he doesn’t always call the equiped but He always equips the called. I have never in my life felt such comfort on where I was and who I was with. Not only the presence of the Lord but the family that he has placed in my life to help each other grow, hold each other up in hard times, and win hearts over for Christ. From waking up at 6am to pack up our tents in the cold rain to winning squad wars, every single second of training camp has changed my heart and has absolutely given me the affirmation that this 11 month journey to 11 different countries is EXACTLY where I am supposed to be. I know there will be hard times on this trip, but God has truly blessed me with an incredible team that I know will be there for one another no matter what, team |undefined|.
