These hands. Once violent, are now meant for embracing.
Hands that were continually feeding the fire of a self destructive addiction, now yearn to bring resolution to others’ afflictions.
These hands, now stretched vertically in worship
Because His were stretched horizontally in forgiveness
These feet. Once buried and immovable, now walk with a purpose.
Feet that still wander off the path. But these hands hold tightly to His, and are sometimes gradually drawn back on, and other times, are vigorously pulled back on course.
These feet, now marching to help “the least of these”, because His feet carried the cross that became death’s demise.
This heart. Once filled with hatred, lust, and greed has been renewed with happiness, faith, and love.
A heart that was once a sad eulogy for the death of another lost soul has become an unwritten book with many chapters to be revealed.
For a long time my eyes were pointed down towards my buried feet, covered by my guilty hands. While all of me was being destroyed, the thing that satan had a hold of the most were my ears. On a consistent basis he screamed quietly into my ears thoughts of failure, hatred, and worthlessness. Over time, my ears became my heart. What I heard from satan everyday is what I came to believe as the truth. When I finally had enough and turned to Christ, all of me had new meaning. I was/am able to walk in faith, with my hands and head held high, and my heart completely consumed with peace and love. Unfortunately, the devil is still able to whisper in my ear. Ever since I was called to be a part of The World race he has really been chatting. One of the obvious doubts/lies he has been telling me is that I will not raise the money. Another thing I have gone through is the feeling of “who am I to carry God’s message to SO MANY PEOPLE?”. Mainly because I am not the most Biblically versed and I just felt like I was not qualified. Fortunately God has control of me now and he can remind me that when Jesus was choosing his disciples he did not seek out the religious leaders, but those who would simply humble themselves and follow. Christ will equip us with the right tool at the right time. This journey before my 11 country journey has been a learning experience in itself and I am going crazy with anticipation to see what He has in store for me and the rest of my squad!!
