The closer I get to the World Race, the more I have to say goodbye to the things that I love the most. When God called me to the World Race, I knew that I was essentially sacrificing a year of my life to serve God completely and fully, but I didn’t realize just how much it would hurt…like really really really HURT.
But Jordyn, you are serving the Lord.
But Jordyn, you are going to see the World!
But Jordyn, a year is nothing in comparison to a whole lifetime!
No comfort, no encouraging words, nothing but the supernatural peace of the Holy Spirit helps.
I am a WRECK. And a Drama Queen, but still, a WRECK.
And it keeps getting more difficult.
You see, I have been a leader in my church’s youth program for two years, and the young ladies I serve hold a huge place in my heart. I have laughed with them, cried with them, and grown closer to Jesus with them, but about a month ago, in my prayer time, God gave me a challenge.
“Take a step back and lean into me.”
WHAT DO YOU MEAN TAKE A STEP BACK?
Like quit being a leader?
Leave my girls?
Abandon my girls? They need me!!!
After a ton of prayer, I realized what God was doing. My life revolved around serving others and helping them encounter Jesus, when I was in fact neglecting my own encounter and alone time with Jesus. My time with Him was becoming a ritual, a religion, not a relationship.
I realized I had to say goodbye. And that hurt.
It hurt so much.
I am so tired of goodbye.
But then I am reminded that Jesus said goodbye to heaven and paradise so he could die for my sins. He lived 30+ years in a world that wasn’t worthy to have Him, but He did it for me. He said goodbye to a comfortable life in heaven so He could save me, and then I realized something.
JESUS is worthy of my goodbyes.
JESUS is worthy of my sacrifice.
I am laying it all down for Him. There is no plan B.
Am I scared? YES
Am I uncomfortable? HECK YES.
Will it be worth it? Most definitely.
But I still hate goodbyes.
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