This past week has been the hardest week I’ve ever had on the race.
I’ve asked The Lord to remove idols, remove comforts, remove anything and everything I’ve depended on that isn’t Him.
I’ve asked him to humble me and strip away my pride and everything I’ve taken pride in.
So He did.
He brought me to the end of myself.
One by one, He’s stripped it all away.
I’ve come to a place where I’m emotionally drained, physically exhausted and spiritually broken and even in the midst of all of this, the Lord has continued to say “Press in I have more”
The Lord keeps asking me
“AM I ENOUGH
AM I ENOUGH FOR YOU JORDAN”
with my lips I say yes, but my heart, would it say the same?
“IF I CONTINUE TO STRIP THINGS AWAY FROM YOU..
IF YOU WERE NEVER TO HEAR MY VOICE AGAIN,
IF YOU WERE TO NEVER FEEL MY PRESENCE AGAIN,
ARE YOU STILL GOING TO PRAISE AND WORSHIP ME?
I’VE GIVEN YOU THE ULTIMATE GIFT… ETERNAL LIFE.
IS THAT NOT ENOUGH?”
The Lord has asked me to lay down everything I love.
every desire, every longing, every dream
and He says “I AM these things, now let ME be them for you”
The Lord has revealed heavy wounds in my life that I hadn’t ever invited Him into.
Parts of me I had kept hidden because they were covered with shame and rejection. He exposed my wounds to show me He wanted to heal those parts of me so that I’m able to walk in freedom from the pain that has crippled me.
So as I continue to press in,
pray that I would accept the healing the Lords trying to do in my life.
pray I continue to draw closer with the Lord in my brokenness.
pray I continue to invite my team into this healing process.
pray I would have grace for myself.
pray The Lord would continue to bring me to a place of needing him.
pray for opportunities for the gospel to be shared.
pray for boldness for myself and my team.
Love Tex
