I can not begin to tell you what happened to me the past two weeks in Berlin, Germany and I honestly do not even want to try. It is more of a face-to-face conversation worth having, all this typing does not do it an ounce of justice. But here is a glimpse of a glimpse of what God did in my life the past two weeks…
“I’m Just Hanging On,” is a phrase I started hearing when I came on the World Race. At our training camp I would hear different staff say that, “I am just hanging on,” when they would refer to their lives. Every time I heard that phrase, I did not understand. “Isn’t that a bad thing?” my mind would say each time.
Fast Forward 11 months, and I am understanding that phrase. I am living that phrase. For me “just hanging on” means God is calling you to something WAY BIGGER than yourself, and you better be hanging on to him, or you will not be able to do what he is calling you to!
For this season, God has asked me to go deeper in worship. He has led me to “lead” in worship …
[This month my team and Melina’s team were in Berlin partnering with Burn 24/7. Burn is a movement to have worship, more specifically, vertical intercession through music. It may be in a building or at a park, and people from all walks of life unite to worship and intercede for their city, 24 hours a day 7 days a week. The BURN in Berlin is still new, so it is not everyday yet. My team was able to be a part of a 24 hour BURN session last weekend, which we were given two hours to worship and intercede.]
Our first night in Berlin, I was worshiping the love of my life, and a few minutes later a new song was birthed through me. From that moment I was so pumped to see what God was going to do the rest of the week. That was NOTHING compared to what God did. I could write about how several of us were worshiping and then we began to hear angels sing (LITERALLY). I could tell you about our amazing contacts that truly live the life God is calling all of us to. I could tell you about their children, one at age five is prophesying and speaking life into people. I could even write about the many places we worshiped, such as the Berlin wall. I could try to explain how every single team member experienced a new freedom in their worship. I could tell you that my worship through song was transformed to intercession through song. But I CAN NOT go into detail about all that through a computer. I CAN NOT even process half of what happened to me the past two weeks. I wish I could sit down and give you all a play by play of the journey God sprinted me through the past two weeks, but it is not possible for me to do that.
So here is what I can say, I have been awakened to a deep hunger and excitement in my soul. There is a part of me I had NO IDEA was there. I “led” worship from guitar and I opened my mouth to sing Him praises. If you knew me before a couple weeks ago, you would KNOW that I do not sing. I do not sing in front of my family, my closest friends, or in front of ANYONE! Well not anymore, something broke in me. I could not/CAN NOT stop singing! I sing about my love for God, about His love for me, and I even sing my prayers over nations and people. In fact, there are moments, that the voice that sings out of me has NO volume control. The deep worship that overflows from my mouth can not be quiet sometimes, and it is stinking LOUD! If I cared what other people thought, I would probably be embarrassed, BUT I DON’T. This freedom is changing me, changing others, changing the atmosphere. God is allowing me to be a conduit of his love, and I am only seeking HIM.
I am starting to see a glimpse of the reality that God is calling me to something way bigger than myself. I could barely recognize a deep, deep part of me. I was convinced God changed my voice, but He assured me I always had it, but NEVER tapped into it. I know there is so much more to tap into in numerous aspects of my life, and I intend to. I intend to use every ounce of what God’s grace gives me. I do not want to live at 75% of my potential. I refuse to!
I wanted to share this part of my life with all of you, because I know everyone still has deeper things to tap in to! I just want to encourage you to go deeper. YOU determine what you tap into with our God. YOU determine how much of your potential you will walk in! It is by GOD’s Grace we have been given so much potential– so find HIM. Find what HE has in store for you. FIND HIS HEART!
I’m sorry I don’t have more. Check out my teammates blogs on the left because they have been blogging about Germany.
*Chuck Magnet took the last two pics!*
