So, the biggest question I have had when telling people about The World Race is “why”?
My entire existence has been filled with what I thought were the rules of life. I went to college, went to graduate school, got a full time job, but still I felt empty. My heart always longed for more. I would remind myself how blessed I was and how I should just be happy with what I have. However, I was not happy I was miserable. I was going through the motions living day by day without a purpose. One day I ask myself the deep philosophical question “why?” I did not have a good response or even a reason, so I said to myself “FIND YOUR WHY”!
That is exactly what I did! I researched, planned, prayed, talked to family and was determined to live a purposeful life. Fast forward to March 2015 I learned about the World Race and knew that this was my calling. Nevertheless, doubt flooded my thoughts. I was beyond scared, was I really going to make this life changing decision to give it all up and travel the World for 11months. I was filled with questions “how will I raise the money”, “what if I don’t get accepted”, “am I really Godly enough to teach others about God”? I was clouded by doubt and this ultimately led me to the decision that I was just not ready to do the race. I was going to find another job, save money, and my time would come. So here I was officially back at STEP 0.
It was June, then July, August, September, October and I was still unemployed and extremely unmotivated. I asked God, “What are you trying to tell me”? All signs were pointing that this was my time to surrender it all. So, I did just that! I spent an entire day completing my World Race application and I was ready! All my doubt was filled with scripture, and I reminded myself that God proves to me that on the days that I do not love myself, he loves me twice as hard. God shows me that I am lovable and I am MORE than worthy.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you”- 1 Peter 5:7
So here I am, almost 10 months after my initial nudge! Ready to take this giant leap into this new opportunity! Therefore, for anyone who wants to know “why”… my only response is
WHY NOT?
