So the question is am I changed? When I come home will they see somebody new? It’s expected right? News that we were coming home spread faster than the flu, and where we are going people are spiritually sick but the vaccinations are few. But these questions still remain. Will home feel like home? Is the core of me American? Am I going to live supernaturally? How much of my life is a catastrophe? Will I keep walking into the calling God has called on my life? Why am I having trouble trusting God when He’s proved Himself over and over again? If I’m not who I was and God’s telling me who I am what will my heart choose to believe?
Right now these are question in which I don’t have the answer and if my mind is attacked this equation could give this wonderful year a deadly cancer. But a scenario like a divine plan plus a human head equals a life that is maybe unnecessarily more complicated to understand. Can we figure God out? He holds the world in His hand. Please check out His story. Like the fullness of grace versus the Pharisaical testimony equals a split between runners and there is no shoe for your tongue in this race. Silence is golden and I prefer my feet to be swollen and have only my Father’s voice be the only one that is spoken. And His motto is love and that sinks ships of confusion because His touch from above will cause a beautiful contusion. So He showed me love and cleaned up my mess.
I’m no longer self conscious about how I dress with no conscience, and with myself I no longer have conflicts because I know battle of the mind concept and everyday my brain acts like congress and votes in truth and vetos lives that make my faith in God constant and each moment I grow confident I got strength from above to carry all seven continents and you can see people who have been blessed in God’s content and view my life in full context. And I live out the truth with my head and my heart and it’s contagious like a rare complex by a warrior named David. So Satan can bring his Goliath and God will give me His stones and I will jump out the gauntlet and send him where he belongs.
