Month 4 Debrief
I’ve always been in leadership it seems. Going into training camp I had finally gotten to a point where I didn’t care if I team led or not. I was ok with where God wanted me, knowing that I could grow in leading from “second chair” as well.
But then midway through training camp I really wanted to team lead…for whatever reasons. But I still chose to lay those feelings down. I got picked anyways.
4 months later I was faced with the same situation in squad leading. But I knew if I wasn’t chosen for squad leader then I could step down and pursue many other things that God would have for me instead. I was able to out my pride aside and see the prize in all the outcomes.
As it turns out I was asked to squad lead. So were 2 of my closest friends on the squad, Megan and Kate, And Sam is going to stay a little while longer too!
We all met at debrief a few days early for a little bit of training and going over team formations. Then of course came the arrival of the rest of the squad and the awkward conversations of “we know you are squad leading even if you can’t say so.”
It was a crazy week. Everyone’s nerves on edge with the upcoming team changes. My nerves for what the rest of the year will look like. The awkward period of “in between” waiting in transition.
This is probably when I felt like my flesh wanted to act out the most. On the brink of change. On the brink of outcomes. On the bring of something greater.
I feel like this is often how it works. Satan wants to trap us in that moment of awkward transition when we are confused. He wants to start one last battle before we receive the next calling God has for us.
The good news is that we have one great calling for our lives. We think our lives are made up of multiple callings. This isn’t true. God is not surprised by the things we do in life. Our life is what giant calling to serve and glorify him. Being in transition doesn’t make this any different.
Holdfast when you are stuck “in between.” It may feel like you are in the brink of greatness. But the reality is that you are a son or daughter of the King. You already walk in greatness.
