I feel lost. I feel
like I am walking through the valley reaching for your hand. But I
can’t reach. My strength is dwindling. My heart is breaking. I fall to
my knees and cry out for you. With tear’s in my eyes I cry out to you
LORD!! I NEED YOU!! Then you wipe away my tear’s and say “Child, I AM
with you”
As I type this I am in a struggle to grow past what I have done. All the mistakes I have made. Than I realize that it dose not matter anymore. I can not chang what I have done. I can only grow from what I have learned.
All was washed away. All was forgiven. But the more I think about it the more the memories haunt me.
I feel tempted in many ways. I strive to stay strong and push through. I pray and cry out to God to help me.
(Sometimes I feel that He isn’t listening)
But I remember He hears all and knows all. He know what is right for me, and what is wrong.
The fact is that I am forgetting the main problem I am having, I am in many ways still living as I was.
I need to stop and let God lead me, not lead myself.
I just stop and think about this.
Every crack of the whip was for our sins. Every drop of blood was for us.
We killed Jesus. Then He saved us…………. That hurts to think about, but it is something that keeps me going.
It keeps me on the path for God. I just pray I don’t stray again. I pray I follow Him for the Rest of my Life.
Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
