Driving away from Mbita
Last week we left an amazing time of ministry in Mbita, Kenya to meet our entire squad in Eldorett, Kenya for a time to worship, rest, and encourage one another before departing to Uganda. And despite driving down roads dodging the confusion of people, huge potholes, and large trucks, I felt once again a huge calm knowing my Father in heaven is with me. The last two years have brought a wealth of experiences exposing my mistrust in God. I struggle to believe that He isn’t sadistic; that He doesn’t just give us desires to betray us. And yet during my time in Mbita, God began to create a trust inside of me, reaching deep inside my core.
Many of the people we worked with in Mbita had been a part of YWAM, and I picked up from them one of about 50 copies of a book called Breakthrough. The book is written by a guy named Rudi Lack from Switzerland who played a large role in sharing the Gospel with YWAM in several nations where sharing Christ was illegal. And in the book, Rudi shares the amazing story of how God used him to fulfill his desire of sharing Jesus in many countries. And as he begins describing his story, I remember one paragraph where he writes how he prayed for a yellow postal truck as a child for Christmas. And after God miraculously provided him with one, he says, “God had rewarded the simple faith of a young lad. From that moment on I never had any doubt. I was convinced that God cared about the things that mattered to me.”
For me, that idea is still new and revolutionary. I’ve seen God provide for me for the World Race in such a way I know it’s Him! And yet I still fear that God will ask me to pursue and marry someone I don’t find beautiful. For the past three years, that’s been my greatest fear driving me away from really listening to God and intimately knowing Him! And why do I have the intense desire to fly, explore the mountains of Alaska, or share the gospel to and explore Nepal? I fear too that He’s given these desires to me…yet will never fulfill them. But as I dive into scripture, I think I’m finding that God does have a much deeper care for us than we really believe. In John 15:7 Jesus says, “If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you.”
