God has proven himself more faithful on the days I feel like He is the furthest away. Lately I don't feel like this next year is going to come together. Raising money was my biggest fear when I applied for the World Race. How am I supposed to come up with $16,000? I kept asking myself this question & it caused me to put off applying for this race for 3 months. Looking back I see the times God was nudging me to apply, but my own fears held me back. The sad reality is that so many times our humanly fears hold us back from the heart of our heavenly father. God works in the funniest ways in my life, sometimes I hate it, but in the end I know it is all Him & for that I am thankful.
In the past week I have had the amazing opportunity to meet with 2 former World Racers. Both of these amazing ladies were so on fire & had so much wisdom & I got to share in that. That in itself is a blessing from God because both of these ladies were friends of someone I knew & God made the connections. They helped me process a lot of what I am going through right now as I am in this season of life, but shared what life for me will look like next year. These are just small encounters of being blessed by God.
My other amazing blessing was that one of the girls I met with just returned home a few days ago from the World Race. To say that she was a blessing to me is not even making a dent in how I feel. She did so much for me, more than I could have ever expected. To think you are going over to pick up some leggings that she had an extra pair of & then to walk out 40 minutes with a backpack full of items that I was needing & was planning on buying completely melted my heart. The fact that God would think to put this girl in my life for a short period of time to bless me beyond anything I could imagine just humbles me to the core. God knows what we need. Sometimes, actually more often than not, God works in His ways, not in the ways we want. Praise be to God that He works in His own time & how He wants because if it was up to me, I know that I would not be here tonight writing this. God is faithful & I have to believe that at times when it is hardest. I am seeing Him break through in odd ways in my life which make me smile because I know that He has not forgotten me. We serve a big God!
-Joyfully, Jinnae
