We push so much for things to be different for us, to be uncomfortable and once we have had uncomfortability for too long we start forcefully acting upon how things can be comfortable again. How can things be better for me? How can this situation look something like my old life? How can this situation look like a glimmer of the life I used to live in the states or a year ago or when I was in college?
Thus far on the race I don’t look like what I used to look like, I don’t feel like what I used to feel like and I certainly don’t act the way I used to act but I still want to go back. Everything was so comfortable. So nice. So easy.
Remember when God called the Israelites out of Egypt where they had been enslaved for years? Most of them wanted to go back to their old life of being a SLAVE because living in the wilderness was just too hard, too uncomfortable for them, and not familiar enough.
They had experienced everything they had experienced with God, like parting the Red Sea, and still wanted to return back to being a slave because it felt right. Those who stayed who waited for The Lord got the full blessing, knowing that their true home wasn’t a place or familiar situations or remembrances of the yesteryears but that heaven was their home. They knew they were simply vagabonds and aliens on this earth getting the full grace and love that God has freely bestowed upon us.
Stay uncomfortable. Push yourself out of the daily normal. Wait for The Lord. Fully accept the grace He has bestowed on you and keep on dancing no matter how awkward, tired, or old you are.
Jillian Paul
