Tonight as I sit here, frusterated, I had to ask myself why am I stressing over finances? Well, when I started praying, one thing became evident…I really just want to go. I'm having a hard time sitting here waiting for Training Camp and Launch. I want to go and I want to go now.
Growing up in a Christian home, I learned one thing well. God is God but God is in a box. He doesn't heal…He doesn't ___ (fill in the blank). Well, over the years watching many people not get healed and watching a 22 month old child not be raised from the dead, and watching all these things not happen, I have had my times of questioning. However….
Tonight I'm just feeling it. As I sit in bible study going over the attributes of God and talking about not putting Him in a box, it hits me and it hits me hard.
I will not and cannot put God in a box. In whatever way that is…I won't do it.
I'm not going to argue over tongues…
I'm not going to argue over the trinity…
I'm not going to argue over sovereignty….
I'm not going to argue over healing…
Over raising the dead…
Over deaf ears being opened…
Blind eyes seeing…
Freedom engulfing people…
I'm simply going to let God be God. If He says it, I do it. If He says it…it happens.
Tonight I look forward to this upcoming year. A year completely abandoned in HIM…in His will. I long for God to move…in big ways. I long to pray with fellow believers through the night. I long to watch people over come. I long for the challenge. I long for the warfare. I long for community…and worship…and healing…and deliverance…and freedom…and people meeting their Lord and Savior.
But for now, I have to learn to live in the present. I learn to expect the unexpected here, where I am now…even though it's hard.
Training Camp is only 22 full days away…and God is moving and will move then. Until then…I sit and wait…patiently…expectingly…and hopefully.
What are you expecting God to do in your upcoming season?
