Here I sit in my room in the Philippines… I sit here knowing that I leave tomorrow and that God will begin a new journey in my heart and teach me so many more things.
My heart aches thinking about goodbyes in the hours to come… but for now I sit here and wait… wait on God… and think about the many things He showed me this month.
One of the most cherished things I learned this month is that God wants to be intimate and close to me, in a way that I cannot fathom… and even when I try to fathom it… I feel completely weak with love for Him. I can barely stand when I think about His love for me… I’m constantly moved to my knees… because I know His love is covering me. I feel the weight of His heart upon me. Every second of every day I’m thinking how can I be closer to you Father.. How can I be with you at every second of everyday… I’m hungry for more of you God… so hungry… my very innermost part of me wants MORE. I need More. I can’t stand just a little part of you God… I want every part of you. If that means I must sacrifice my life… that would be a worthy cause… because just to know you brings my life its very own completion.
I offer my heart completely to God… and His ways. I offer my life to the crazy situations that He might want to use me for. I offer everything I am … my soul surrendered… all I am is God’s.
So if you’re reading this take 10 minutes to get alone with God… fall on your knees… with your heart surrendered to a Father that wants to love you. Gosh guys He’s so big… I’m overwhelmed by His love as I type this. He wants you to know that despite your pains… your struggles He is with you always… He will never leave you nor forsake you… He has you, and He wants to love you.
All glory to you Father.
